Aftereffects

Well I might have spoke too soon when I last said that there was no pain or anything. Sunday night I started to have pain. It increased to the point where I knew I wasn't just imagining it. We called the "On-Call" Doctor. He said that more than half the patients having this procedure will have pain, fever, sickness. He was surprised that Dr. Palestrant hadn't sent me home with a prescription. He called one in for me. I only used 1 and 1/2 of the pills so far. He said the pain was the tumors dying, so it was a good pain.
We went to my Dr appointment on Tuesday. Dr Roberts said I looked about like he thought I would after this procedure, I looked like I felt lousy. He said if we killed the right amount of liver/tumors I would start to feel better in a few days, if we killed too much then I would feel like this for months. He recommended a surgeon for the removal of the mass in my abdomen. We have a consultation visit set up for July 15. They took blood to test to give some indication of how well the first procedure went. I also got my second sandostanin shot.
I worked 1/2 a day on wed. we will see how I do today but I think I am feeling better. The pain that started high on the right side seemed to move down over the days. I imagined it starting at the top of the tumor and eating, dissolving shrivelling the tumor slowly from the top and moving down, sort of like consuming a carrot still in the ground following it right to the tip. I have no idea if that is accurate but that is what I have imagined as the pain has moved downward.
Now I just need to start working on my courage to go back and start over again next wed.